I am not really sure where I lost focus on trying to write something every day. I feel really saddened that like so many other things in my life I just let it drop off to the abyss. I need to fix that part of me among other things.
I have always been a bit of a slacker, not really how I would like to be nor how I would like to be seen by others. I wish I was a industrious person all of the time. I go through periods of time where it is like everything clicks, my mind is clear, I feel good, I'm thinking positively, things I do work out well, ideas I share are golden etc. Then there are times where I can not concentrate on anything, my attitude takes a dump, and I feel like crap. I really have no idea what causes it to flip from one to the other either. It almost feels like I have a ping pong game in my head, when there is a few balls I do well, but then some jerk dumps a bucket of balls on the table and I can not see the balls I am supposed to hit. The balls all look the same and are bouncing all over the place, I'm swinging away but I just can not make contact with the right ones. There are always a number of things bouncing around my head, its just at times it gets to be overwhelming. The frustration seemingly has no end at that point, and I end up giving up. Then all of a sudden we are back to square one again, just like some one flipped a switch.
Some times all the noise in my head just plain distracts me from remembering to do things.
Is this normal?
oh and happy Meatless Monday ;)
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