When I woke up this morning I had the overwhelming feeling that I need to make some changes. My epiphany as it were is I'm sure no earth shaking world changing concept but I do not want to be the angry fat guy any more! (Not that I ever wanted to be but I did embrace it in stead of fighting it.)

Some of you will know that lately I have had some fairly bad feelings about my situation and my overall outlook. It is nothing new that I get down on myself, well about just about everything. I am not generally a positive thinking person and I have a hard time maintaining a positive attitude. That negativity and general laziness has been a major contributor to almost all of the bad things I have had happen and have done through out my life, and to top it off I have known this and done nothing about it. I have had the mantra that I am a asshole and I don't care who knows it, far to long.

To help combat this vicious cycle I need goals and activities. I seem to feel better about myself when I accomplish things even when they really are trivial in the grand plan I feel better when I am busy. I know my Mom was similar and her biggest downfall was her laziness. (Both of us also share the whole fondness for McDonald's cheese burgers that I really can not explain. I'm not sure where that fits in yet so please forgive my tangent)

Today as part of my self induced therapy I created something new for me to do, this blog. My goal with this blog is to be brutally honest about me, my goals, my activities, my thoughts etc. for me. I need this to help me make my changes and not enable further laziness. There have been a hand full of times where I attempted these very same things but got lazy and settled for less than my goals and in many cases actually settled for less than I had before. That is right I said it I am that lazy! In my life I have also had enablers that made that great feat of laziness possible. I can not blame them though. Dealing with me can not be easy and I myself am guilty of doing so.

Well having said all this it is time for me to get off my ass and out the door. The day waits for no one and it is what we make of it.

Love you all
Dan

PS Its meatless Friday for me, Lisa and I are going to the Oasis vegetarian Cafe and Im getting a Vegan steak burger........HELL YA lol